Ranting, Raving and Renewing

I am amazed at how God is working JUST today! Not only with my sister and my nephew they are adopting ( a HUGE answer to prayer today and a BIG step forward) and with a personal issue we've been dealing with coming to resolve...but earlier today, I went to Wal-mart just to get out, after having a breakdown last week(to be completely honest as you all know I am..lol)...trying hard to relax and stay functioning....a lady walked up to me out of nowhere and just said "I am suffering from severe anxiety and am on medication but don't know what to do? do you know what I should do?" WOW!!! Isn't God awesome....just amazing. I encouraged her as best I could and it ended up that her brother also has fibromyalgia and his fiancee too. She called her brother from her cell and put him on the phone with me in wal-mart to talk to him. I offered some encouragement, prayer and my email to give him allll the many resources I have at my disposal, was able to share that SOMEONE understands and there is HOPE. His fiancee is trying to get disability and I JUST talked to the founder of a non-profit organization called Fibromyalgia Coalition International yesterday and she shared with me a lawyer who helps people with Fibro get disability nationwide so now I'll be able to offer that to him. I also asked the lady at the coalition about how, if we raised money through a "RUN" and later a kayaking event one of our students wants to do to help (how precious is that??) here in Cola to also raise awareness about the illness, how we could use the money to benefit some people I have met recently who are suffering from this debilitating illness. She assured me that if the money was given to them, they could give it directly to the Fibromyalgia Center I go to in Atlanta and use it to sponsor anyone I choose. Even though I am wondering how we are going to continue MY own treatments, I am more concerned right now with finding help for so many others who NEED it too! I KNOW God will somehow continue to find the means financially for me to go...but my heart's desire and passion (besides serving and ministering to young people) is to minister to and help others with chronic illnesses, pain and misunderstood illnesses. So, I am going to start a support group/bible study for anyone who wants to come..just don't know when yet...praying through that...please pray with me in that! By the way, the lady I spoke with in Wal-mart is not from what I was asking her, a Christian, but wants to come to our church, we exchanged numbers and she asked me how, after all I've been through could I still have the presence, spirit and smile that I had?? :) Of course you know my answer...."it's all from the Lord" she even asked "why God allowed things like this to happen to people like myself?" so I did get the opportunity to share with her some amazing things I know about our Creator. As I was talking to her brother on the phone, she was hugging me, crying and I could hear her mumbling "God, this has to be YOU" It was a reminder to me and maybe a revelation to her that God loves us so very very much and is still here...so intricately involved in every single aspect of our lives!!! As she walked away, and I told her I was praying for her every day along with the many others I have committed to lift up...she said "I love you Kim and you'll never know how much this has helped me" AMEN!! It helped me too. I said yesterday on Facebook and Twitter that I wanted to be a light for Christ in the darkest moments of my life just as I can be during the times when things are wonderful. I have been in a VERY dark place for a very long time, but God can and does use anyone willing to be an empty vessel. He even uses us when we're not willing, but we sure don't receive the blessings like we do when we're willing, obedient and open. I have asked Him to use me and my illnesses for His glory....thankful He is. Love you all and appreciate your many prayers for Jeff and I both!!! Again, look for ways to be used for His glory...and look for Him simply in the Creation....HIS creation around you! You'll see Him!! :)