Ranting, Raving and Renewing

I know that none of you (whether you've known me since childhood, just met me through facebook or a friend, know me from a church as your Children’s Minister, Youth pastors wife, played softball or clogged with me or know me from elementary, middle school, high school or college) have a CLUE what to make of my FB status' so I'm going to try for those asking, to explain my life. I hope you’ll be encouraged by some incredible stories, proving that through all of life’s twists and turns, ups and downs, we have a constant WHO loves us and there IS always a reason for the circumstances. :) For the past 20 years, I have had extremely severe fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, diabetes, arthritis, ten surgeries, degenerative disc disease, severe anxiety disorder and was extremely bi-polar (manic depressive) for 15 yrs .This actually included last resort brain shock treatments to keep me alive! Please don’t miss what has happened with this! I have also suffered 2 miscarriages, had PCOS for years as well as endometriosis and ovarian cysts but just had a hysterectomy. I found out I could NOT conceive right after we adopted Sara Beth! My reaction before the adoption would have devastated me, however, I was miraculously able to say“ HA, take this junk out dr…we have ALL we’ve ever prayed for and more” ☺ AGAIN, you don’t want to miss the miraculous way God provided for an unexpected adoption and the TIMING which was ONLY Him...incredible! OK, so here we are now…. I've been bedridden and unable to walk alone for months. I use a wheelchair, walkers, other people (haha), walls or whatever I can find. The BEST are the sit and shops at Walmart with someone. NO, not riding WITH someone, because that may hinder my viewing area and driving ability. However, the stories of me driving a sit and shop would crack you up!! Yes, they do beep when you back up! THANKS sit and shops!! They can easily get out of control as you zoom endlessly in circles. That may be a little bit of an exaggeration by saying “zoom” but you get the idea. I should say...I love them thangs! Now, back to where we are. ☺Although we now know these illnesses started manifesting themselves in high school at the age of 16, I've suffered SEVERELY to where they actually became disabilities since college at age 19. NO one would have imagined, especially myself, or even known. I was literally an athletic, energetic, happy college student in love with an incredible man, with so many hopes and dreams. I woke up one morning, paralyzed with pain and fatigue and couldn’t move a muscle. I told my room-mate, whose sister happened to have a very invalidated illness called Chronic Fatigue Immune Dysfunction or disorder Syndrome (CFIDS of CFS) and she said “You sound like my sister.” With exams that day I'd studied hard for and a great weekend of concerts coming up, I couldn't move any part of my body. Of course, I was freightened beyond belief, felt alone….like I was dying!!.......
(part 2 to come soon)