Ranting, Raving and Renewing

You know I went from being wheeled around in a wheelchair all day yesterday b/c I couldn't walk more than a couple of steps to getting up this morning at 9:30, feeding bunnies, taking care of doggies, getting ready ON MY OWN, feeding bunnies,going to in-laws for lunch, feeding bunnies, going to church with my girls small group for the FIRST time back since Christmas, feeding bunnies, coming home, eating supper, feeding bunnies and going to bed. Granted, with tears streaming down my face because of the pain level that I pushed through all day (so I KNEW it was inevitably going to be HORRIBLE tonight) I am so blessed to have been out today and surrounded by amazing students and people who love me and love GOD!!! All in all, I am gonna praise Him through the storm. I may need some reminding sometimes that He is still in control but tonight, even through the tears of pain, I rejoice. One of my small group girls said tonight when I said I finally feel I have a purpose feeding these helpless little bunnies, "Kimmie, you've always had a purpose and I can't even think of my life without you in it...it makes me so sad and makes me cry" (as we both cried) I LOVE MY GIRLS and am soooooo very proud of what God is doing in their lives. I know I know....their not really MY girls, but they sure do feel like it and I love 'em like my own!! Bunnies too! Told someone tonight, and I think they thought I was crazy...lol....like I've never gotten that before...HAHAHAHAHA......that I don't know why animals make me feel the way they do....but I don't have much distinction between people and animals. Yes, I realize people are more important but for whatever reason God gave me a HUUUUUGE heart for little animals. So, for now, I am content. HURTING, frustrated, exhausted...but my heart is full!!!! :) For all of you readers dealing with illnesses and frustrations of the life going on around you.....I am lifting you up and believing you and I will both soon JOIN that life, add more joy and happiness to it and APPRECIATE it like no one else can!! Gonna happen people...gonna happen. Hold on to that hope we are promised as Children of a LOVING God!!!!! He's holding you now!!!! Think I'm gonna write a book for those with chronic illnesses entitled, "It's okay to be down, as long as you can still look up." When you're in that pit.....look up and you WILL see some light. Even if it's dark, you can see a star, or a plane......that's light...LOL) Don't ever forget that!!